What I need has changed a lot over the years. When I was younger, the list was long and included a lot of silly things. Age and life and loss have changed that list. The past year has changed it.
This year, I’ve lost two friends and a high school classmate. A girl I grew up with and a close childhood friend both lost their husbands. This year, I’ve learned that life truly is a vapor. “Need” takes on a new meaning when death hits close to home. What do we really need in this life when we can’t take it with us? What do we need in a world filled with uncertainty, a world where nothing is really safe, a world where everything is fleeting?
What do I need? I need Jesus. I need my family–and more than that, I need my family to know how much I love them. I need to know that if I died, they would never doubt my love. I need to trust in something—in Someone—bigger than me. I need to know that I am not in control, but I am deeply loved and cared for by the One who is. I need faith that is grounded in the God of eternity.
Like Paul, I need to know how to be content in whatever circumstances I’m facing. When life is good and I have more than enough, I need to be content and grateful. When life is hard and I’m struggling, I need to be content and trusting. When peace reigns or when chaos swirls like a hurricane around me, I need to know that the God of the infinite universe is also my God, and He is always in control. My life is in His hands. He is all I need.